Why bother ???
Two weeks ago, I was called a thief,
and thrown out of a shop for not agreeing.
Now, I am labelled ‘angry’ and ‘bitter’
and subjected to impertinent reprimand for not agreeing to that.
It is a heart-breaking thing indeed, to either –
have to accept by admission,
the defamatory assertions that are made about oneself
(no matter how genuinely someone may believe them to be true),
or refuse to accept them,
and be ‘thrown out’ like rubbish.
I am – and have been since a little boy,
a quiet, introverted, and peaceable human being.
I will not, therefore, at the age of 55,
acquiesce to any man, woman, or child,
who is determined to have me admit
that I am ‘ bitter’ … ‘angry’ …
and express myself by ‘shouting in anger’.
For me to NOT agree to character traits that,
to me, are disgraceful in any person,
does not mean that I am “angry”.
It means that I am resolute
that I will not be falsely misrepresented
I find it hard to believe that that is unreasonable.
I am a very patient man,
not prone to ‘raving’ or ‘raging’.
I state facts made from quiet observation.
I present evidence that may be observed
by all who read the words on this site.
I give a solution to the problem.
And even anticipate likely ‘ah buts’ and ‘what if’s’.
To do this articulately requires Calmness of Mind.
This, I had thought, would be self-evident.
In the video concerning “Fierce Evangelicals”,
I was deeply upset at the conduct of a woman who was
a frequent visitor to this site; a woman from Ireland
(No, I would not have the audacity to make that up)
of all places);
a woman who ran for political office,
and would ‘jail’ certain groups of modern humanity
who did not (shall we say) “follow” biblical standards of life
in their private lives.
That particular video was made for, and directed to
all who share her sentiments.
I would ask any visitor of this site to VIEW it, and
see for themselves, if my demeanour and speech
reveals an “angry”, “bitter” man … shouting,
raging, or anything similar.
The world is not mine to change:
BUT My Life is mine to use as best I can
to make a moral change in those who fall
within the sound of my voice
(or sight of my written compositions).
When Malignant creatures on YouTube,
curse, and degrade, and tell the American mother
of a disabled child that she should have “Put your retard down”,
by no stretch of the imagination do I speak out because I am
“full of resentment at how the world seems to be treating [me]”;
I do so because I despise bullies, and have a moral centre
which seeks to defend those who are timid, quiet, or weak.
I did not remain long in the military because I had no commonality
with those whose days were filled with macho posturing
and spewing obscenities at every personal inconvenience;
whose ‘social’ antics revolved around liquor and copulation.
While many came to me seeking advice with personal
and family problems, I was never part of the ‘social scene’.
Such a world is no place for me.
The problem is that the military under Mrs Thatcher
was (at least, what I saw of it) a refined ‘finishing school’
compared to the filth that can be seen on teen social sites,
or heard coming from the mouths of teenage boys … and girls
(to say nothing of adults who set the ‘example’) today.
There is, throughout this Internet site,
a great deal of ‘what to do’, and ‘what not to do’
… as well as the consistently repetitious
‘how to do it’ advocated in words such as “selflessness”,
“humility”, modesty”, and “empathy”.
If someone does not know what these basic terms mean,
I expect them to make the effort to find an Oxford English Dictionary,
and ‘look them up’. Those who are sincere will make the effort.
Those who are not may go elsewhere for their entertainment.
Critiques are good … as noted in this site – provided
that the person is morally qualified to do so.
Where I will not be … “critiqued” is to have my character defamed
by making me out to be an ‘angry’, ‘bitter’ man.
That is not a “critique” – that is slander.
Refusing to accept such degradation
does not mean that I am ‘angry’,
it means that I am honourable and honest –
and will not accept a lie about my character,
or the character of anyone with whom I am familiar.
A man is named ‘Andrew’.
He meets a man on the street:
a man whom he has ‘seen around’,
but does not know personally.
“Hello, my name is Andrew”, he says.
The man replies: “Hey, Andy! How are you?”
“Andrew”, he replies, “… I am fine.”
“Great, Andy! What are you doing now?”
“Please, I prefer to be called ‘Andrew’ … I am going home.”
“Okay, Andy, well, I am heading this way. ‘Bye Andy.”
They meet a second time. Again the conversation starts:
“Hey, Andy, how are you today?”
“Please, I hate ‘Andy’ – call me ‘Andrew’.”
“Okay, Andy – you know, whatever!”
Well, And’, I got to be off.”
And a third time:
“Andy, how’s it going?” … and so on.
Now … IS Andrew going to continue to ignore the disrespect
of being addressed, not by his proper name,
but by a vulgar contraction of it,
which he has specifically asked not be used ?
I suspect that he will tire of correcting this fellow
who will not be corrected.
I suspect that he will not be on intimate, personal terms
with a man who insists upon calling him
something … that he is not.
So, in like manner, surely, one should not persist
in degrading my nature, and somehow imagine
that I will acquiesce and accept it.
I am a writer by trade: proficient in the presentation of words;
I am good at what I do.
I can describe growing up amidst explosions
and bloodshed in Northern Ireland-
without being afraid;
I can present the effects of tyrannical injustice,
without being angry.
I have been a school-teacher of 14 and 15 year olds;
which requires Patience … not anger.
I am utterly indifferent whether anyone visits this site or not.
It does not worry me in the slightest.
I am here, out of conscience.
I pay, from my own pocket, the equivalent of
130 American dollars each year
so that anyone who does arrive here,
does not have to have adverts shoved in their face.
I provide thoughtful observations,
encourage people to see for themselves,
if what I suggest is true in society at large;
And I give the solution, by telling people … ‘How’ –
what they can do to reverse the trend of filth
and selfish malignancy within their own sphere of daily life
practice “You first”, rather than “Me First” ;
be content with few possessions and a simple lifestyle;
throw the TV where it belongs;
look at the way people treat their animals, and discern accordingly;
let a man talk or write,
and you will soon see his character revealed;
have no companionship with those who are loud,
arrogant, and cock-sure of themselves …
… and so on and so forth,
throughout the entirety of this site.
Clear instructions, observations, and suggestions –
‘How to do what is right’ – are regularly and copiously provided
for anyone who does not want to be the same
as what they see and hear around them.
If such thoughts are of use to no one;
and no one visits this site,
it does not concern me in the slightest.
All I ask is that, if people ARE finding value in this site,
they let me know.
If no one does, it would be foolish of me (wouldn’t it, now ?)
to continue handing out annual fees for a site on the Internet
where no one visits with genuine interest.
Many visitors return here regularly.
If they will not comment, I presume that they are here
to laugh or plagiarise, which I have seen.
If no one finds any value in this site,
I will not waste time in composing and editing,
or in spending money upon it.
I have renewed each year,
because people have asked me not to leave.
But where my nature as a quiet and peaceful man
( I was originally deemed a “pacifist”
in the exchange that prompted this ‘post’ ),
is trodden upon, and I am made out to be an angry, bitter creature
who shouts at a computer screen … No, I will not have that.
If someone persists, to the point of obnoxiously presuming
to … “picture right now how angry [ I am ]” …
because they are bound and determined
to depict me as an ‘angry’ man,
that person is clearly beyond the reach of any reasoning
that I might attempt.
Even the artistic use of dark background to better display
the colours of photographs on this site,
was drawn in to represent the ‘bitter’ nature within me.
When even this prodigious fantasy was swept away by simple reality,
no word of apology was forthcoming.
Nothing I do will escape the persistence of such a person.
And anything I say, will, I fear, only be used
to build some further sand-castle of false accusation.
Oliver Cromwell’s chaplain put such thoughts in order
when he said (referring to the Day of Judgment):
“Good men shall then be manifested;
their principles, their practices …
They who are now accused of hypocrisy
and obstinacy, and pride and peevishness,
because they could not swim with the stream,
nor run with others to the same excess of riot,
will then be manifested
to be men of integrity and humility,
and to have declined the profane course of others,
not out of foolish preciseness …
but out of conscience …” [ Owen ]
A simple (genuine) word of regret and change of heart
will always find a hand of friendship extended here.
But I will not have my character degraded.
Nor will I stand idly by to have the character
of any good and honourable man or woman degraded –
whether by evangelical thugs, atheistic bullies,
or anyone in between.
VIDEO – “A Plea to Fierce Evangelicals”
Now on my fourth day with the pain of blocked Eustachian Tubes
and an infected throat, I am off to get my Netti Pot,
flush my sinus cavities with warm water and purified salt,
and will be taking some time away from this site,
and from the absurdity of what I have had to contend with of late.
If anyone has additional slanderous rhapsodies
that they wish to dedicate to me,
I shall reserve the discovery of such melodious calumnies
until such times as I do not have tears coming out of my eyes
due to pain, and feel better able to attend unto them.
Thank you for your understanding. [ – PL, 29th September ]
“Worldly men cannot endure to be outshone;
and because they have no mind to be
as good as others, they would fain make others
to be as bad and vile as themselves:
therefore, they are full of hard thoughts
and hard speeches
against good men.” [ Thomas Manton ]