It is, I believe, part of maturity to admit
when one’s best efforts are ineffective
This Internet site was intended
to make people stop and consider;
… and serve as a place where people doing that,
could exchange thoughts, and memories,
The premise of this site has been
that human beings have become excessively self-centred
to the extent that vanity and entertainment
have replaced courtesy and moderation.
Of course, what I had realised
by the end of 2013 was that,
to present such a notion is “offensive”
to 21st century conceit:
As Lorraine pointed out in a comment a few months ago:
… people do not want to be ‘told’ how to live.
“No one is going to tell me how to spell correctly!”
In the 1960’s we, as schoolchildren,
were encouraged to ask questions.
For a Child in the 1960’s to ask questions …
was … Admirable.
For an ‘Adult’ in the 21st century to ask questions …
is to be ridiculed, degraded, dismissed as a … “Theorist”.
General observation will readily reveal that
an adult today … does not possess
the basic mental capacity ( to inquire, to think, to discern )
of a child from 50 years ago.
“Grammar Police”. Some obnoxious, derogatory phrase
or deluge of filthy profanity is now attached
to anyone having the self discipline
and presence of mind
to stop, discern, and consider …
… by those whose conceit and arrogance
permits them to insist that No One
is going to correct them,
or make them better human beings.
Intelligence, discernment, courtesy,
humility, patience, professionalism;
to speak and act with self-controlled maturity;
to rise above the vulgar obscenities
of gutter-level creatures – No!
No … they are far too ‘smart’ to allow
any such ‘old fashioned’ notions to affect them.
It is impossible to reason with anyone
who wants to be – insists upon being – ignorant.
The human mind has been conditioned to believe
that evil does not exist in the world;
that the abuse of power or authority
for personal gain … never occurs.
The ability to think has been sacrificed
on the altar of TV and the popular press,
if most would but pause long enough
to discern their own mind …
Mention one particular word in the English language …
and most can not see it, or hear it – (or even call it to mind)
without INSTANTLY adding a second word to it.
Their brains have been so programmed – altered –
as to make it an involuntary action.
Why, right now … Test Yourself …
You have already added that second word.
Is that fair of me to say ?
I know you have.
And that is no Theory.
It is not that people can not think:
It is that To Think
is too much of an inconvenience …
Actually being civil
is too much of an inconvenience.
The whole of the Internet – YouTube, ‘blogs’,
daily newspaper articles, ‘celebrities’, media sensationalism,
Hollywood sewage, or men chasing a ball around a field …
Everything! – receives comments from those who visit.
But not here.
Not from people who return here, time and time again.
The capacity to leave a word of thanks, or encouragement,
or even greeting … does not exist in any but a very few.
Seeing that, tells me that this site
will never serve any meaningful purpose
in the world and mentality of today.
Those pieces written about the things
most dear to my heart and mind –
things that (I would have imagined) … SHOULD …
wrench at the heart-strings of human conscience
[ “A Dog, and Blind Man, and Modern Humanity”, for instance ]
and stir such righteous indignation as to Demand a response
– have received Not One single comment
in four-and-a-half years.
The Internet is saturated with comments
on any aspect of contrived fear-mongering,
iToys, “movie reviews”, ‘celebrity’ gossip,
and absolutely anything on the television …
but present the lack of Observable basic compassion,
common courtesy, and mature conversation in modern humanity,
and there is … silence.
I was raised with the conviction that, if I enjoyed,
or benefitted … was taught, or was challenged
to my own edification … I said ‘Thank You’, or
‘I enjoyed that’; or, ‘That made me think’.
I remember my grandpa telling me that:
You cannot hurt a kind person more
than by taking their kindness or their hard work
… and then ignoring them.
And it is true.
In September, I experienced the outrageous Irony
of having a self-confessed ‘gun-toting, people-despising American
tell me that my efforts to reason with modern humanity,
and provide thoughtful observations
that might encourage folk to pause, and think,
and exercise discernment and humility:
showed that I was “angry” and “bitter”,
and “screaming at the computer screen”.
Roger, from South Africa ‘spoke up’ in my defence.
Not a word came from anyone else.
Silence – as my grandpa said, is hurtful enough.
But apathy from people, when one’s character is being
maligned and slandered — for people to stand there
and say nothing, that
is beyond my capacity to take in.
I had determined to close this site down
and remove myself from the Internet
in November of 2014.
Three people asked me to stay.
Which I did.
I never heard from a single one of them, again.
I determined to close this site down
and remove myself from the Internet
in October of 2015.
Three people asked me to stay.
Again, I renewed
Last October, 2016, I had had enough.
But stayed because four folk asked me to remain.
I am gullible.
And am tired of being so.
It is the 31st of December as I compose this missive:
if nothing changes in the next two weeks,
I will, all things permitting, ‘post’ it at that time.
I have specifically asked people – during the last four years,
to Help Me to understand, if there is something
about modern humanity that I cannot see;
or do not comprehend.
Robin in America, Roger in South Africa, and Lorraine –
Thank You so very much for making me believe that this
has not been a complete waste of time.
Kate, Hermann, and Hajo – I miss your company
from years past: Thank You for your friendship back then.
Laurence, you left a cryptic message that something was very wrong,
and you were going to ‘get back to [me] on the weekend’:
that was three years ago. My email attempts remained unaswered.
I hope that you are safe and well.
Travis, I lost all email addresses when closing my email
account in November. Yours vanished, and I am sorry that my
few guesses have meant that I have been unable to contact you.
Those who said they wanted to ‘write’ or ‘keep in touch’ –
I was here; Where were you?
I suppose, what I was trying to do here
was important enough to you for a moment; but not after.
The rest: I have no idea why you return here:
for a laugh, I suppose.
I was going to make the comments “open” – but if I remove the
Enter E-Mail Address requirement, this site
will receive around 120 pieces of advertising “spam” a day.
So, other than occasionally returning here,
I shall not know if comments have been left.
But of course, why would there be? Why would anything change?
I always have a spark of hope … Which is why this has to stop.
If any of the topics here are of interest enough to any new visitor
who might arrive, do leave some word – it will not appear publicly,
and I shall see it eventually.
The observable daily life’ of people, generally – is
* Self Centred – “Me”, My Family, and My Agenda;
* Loud – from the evangelical to the atheist – ‘flashy’,
festive; concerned with entertainment
and being entertained. Everything has to be “fun”.
Rather than, with respectful sadness,
mourn the death of a righteous man or woman,
people now ‘celebrate life’ … Everything is a Party.
* Brutal – anyone who is thoughtful, moral, or quiet –
is suspected, ridiculed, condemned.
Vanity and Arrogance are now more important
than Wisdom and Truth.
To be asked to have the humility to learn … is ‘offensive’.
This Internet site began out of my broken heart
at hearing the consistent stream of filth
and vulgarity that came from the mouths of parents (?)
holding little children by the hand;
at seeing the slovenly dress and deportment
of men and women in society –
the lack of effort at professionalism or even
‘acting like a grown up’; and,
upon experiencing the sights and sounds of the Internet;
and reading the comments of those who use it.
The site has been a failure.
But not from any lack of effort
and attention to detail on my part.
I have respected my conscience
and used any skill I possess with words
to present the best possible appeal
to sober-minded reason
that I am capable of offering.
If my grave has a headstone,
at least it can read: “He Tried”.
One can make the effort to converse with people;
but if those who stop to listen
refuse the courtesy of speaking –
what more can one do ?
I cannot understand people today;
and it is certain that they cannot understand me.
And there, I believe,
I shall have to let it rest.
31st December 2016